Reconnected… for now
The last time I blogged about my relationship, (Click to view post) I was feeling very disconnected from my Dom. I was due to see him the next day and was feeling a lot of anxiety around how I was feeling.
Well, in he walked… coffees in hand and the ‘toy bag’ in the other. I felt shy and disconnected from him. I think what we SHOULD have done – was sat down and discussed that before proceeding with anything else but that’s not what happened.
Soon enough… I was starting to reconnect with him but I don’t think, even by the end of the day, that I felt like I was fully re-engaged with him. I loved spending time with him… I always do but when I left that day… I was feeling sad, hurt, lost and shaky. I know that I really need to explore my feelings about this, something I am not great at.
I am getting together with him again this Friday. We will be spending the day together, as we usually do. I think that he has recognized that there is an issue though. He suggested a few dates of possible times to get together and it is noticeably more often than it usually is.
I know his intentions are good but I wonder if he truly has the time needed to be the Daddy Dom, I want and need him to be. I guess, time will tell.