Growing Up Little

A woman exploring the world of BDSM and sharing what she discovers…

10 Day Challenge – Day TEN

Day Ten

List one confession.

I have recently realized, that my lack of being able to set healthy boundaries – has directly affected my daughter and her ability to do the same.  I never modelled that behaviour… how was she suppose to learn to do that for herself? I am starting to realize some of the ‘mistakes’ I have made in raising her and how ultimately they have affected her and her own behaviour.

Don’t get me wrong… I know that no parent is perfect.  I understand that.  I know that I did the best I could do, at the time.  Irregardless… you have an affect on your children and I have recently been learning and acknowledging what some of those have been.

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10 Day Challenge – Day Nine

Day Nine

Two images that describe your life right now and why.

 

Little me lights

Wow… look at this picture I found on Google images.  This is a great representation of what has been going on with me in the last little while.

My inner Little, discovering her and letting her shine and come out of the darkness.

Daddy there… in the background… watching but allowing me space to learn and grow on my own too, while watching to ensure that I’m safe.

Daddy is sort of there… but not.  Not always immediately available.  On the outskirts…  Most of the time being more than an arms length away.

Great representation of what is going on with me right now!  I’m so glad I found it!

 

 

 

 

free This picture represents my sense on inner freedom that I have been earning for myself lately.  The more I explore… the more I come to accept myself and what I want… the more I learn to set boundaries in a healthy way… the more joy I feel inside.  It is hard to explain how much inner freedom I am gaining, by allowing my sexuality to express itself in the way it has always wanted to.  I’ve done a lot of work in the last year.  I’m proud with how far I have come.  Bubbles are so joy inducing for me!

 

 

 

 

 

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10 Day Challenge – Day Eight

Day Eight

List three turn-ons.

  1. Enthusiasm for life.
  2. Ability to communicate and listen well.
  3. Good sense of humour.

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10 Day Challenge – Day Seven

Day Seven

List four turn offs.

  1. Dishonesty, bragging, jealousy.
  2. Excessive use of alcohol or drugs and smoking.
  3. Uncontrolled anger, raging, explosive type tempers etc.
  4. Poor hygiene.

 

 

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10 Day Challenge – Day Six

Day Six

Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

  1. my daughter
  2. my Daddy Dom
  3. my Mom
  4. my Dad
  5. my younger sister

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10 Day Challenge – Day Five

Day Five

Six things you wish you’d never done.

Okay… this is a hard one.  First of all, I believe everything happens for a reason.  So… it is hard to ‘wish’ that something I did, didn’t happen because I don’t know how that would ultimately affect the rest of my life and if that result would actually be a better thing or not.  With that said… the six things listed below are things that I would classify as ‘negative or conflicting things I have done’ that have caused me to wonder how things might have turned out, if I hadn’t done them.

  1. Married my ex-husband.
  2. Been promiscuous as a teenager.
  3. Terminated a pregnancy when I was 17.
  4. Become addicted to prescription medications.
  5. Continued to communicate with my ex-husband for as long as I did.
  6.  Not gone ahead with a restraining order against my ex-husband.

 

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10 Day Challenge – Day Four

Day Four

Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

  1. My daughter, her future, her health, her happiness and her well-being.
  2. Daddy.  Always thinking about Daddy.
  3. Work.  Anxiety around it.
  4. Health.
  5. Humanity.  Good and evil within it.
  6. Karma.  Everything happens for a reason.
  7. How long do I have left to live?  Am I using that time wisely?

 

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10 Day Challenge – Day Three

Day Three

Eight ways to win your heart.

  1. Be open, honest and tolerant.
  2. Love me for who I am right now and always have my best interests at heart.
  3. Be funny and have a great sense of humour.  Make me laugh.
  4. Be excited about life and about spending time with me.
  5. Love small dogs.
  6. Give me space, freedom and time alone.
  7. Communicate, communicate, communicate.
  8. Be kinky… very, very kinky!

 

 

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10 Day Challenge – Day Two

Day Two

Nine things about yourself.

  1. I love green olives.
  2. I have two sisters and one brother.
  3. I have one daughter, she just turned 18.
  4. I lost my virginity when I was 16 years old.
  5. I’ve been arrested – twice.  Once as a teenager and once as an adult.
  6. I have never been to a male strip club.
  7. My favourite colour is turquoise.
  8. I am a serious procrastinator.
  9. I am an ex-smoker.  I quit back in 2001.  I use to smoke well over a pack a day.

 

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Ten Day Challenge – Day One

Day One

List ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.   (It does not matter if they are online friends or face to face friends or if they are alive or passed.)

  1. I’m not perfect and yes I have fucked up but I am not responsible for your sobriety and it is not something you can use as a bargaining chip or as an expectation of reward from me.  Your sobriety is YOUR business.  The manipulation is not going to work this time.
  2. Please, stop egging her on.  Just let it go for now.
  3. Thank you for your calmness.  Thank you for bringing a rational, calm and steady voice to the table.  Thank you for seeing people, as they are, not how they ‘should’ be.  I admire those things in you.
  4. I still feel uncomfortable with you.  I wish I felt more easy and natural when I am around you.  I know that there are feelings I am holding on to… affecting the here and now… and I need to release those but… I seem unable to.  I’m trying.
  5. Your quiet, shy, passive nature, I have mistaken for weakness.  I will try to remember that the “voice”, doesn’t necessarily indicate the power, confidence and ability behind it.
  6. I am so sorry you are in so much pain.  I wish there was something I could do to make it all better.  It makes me sad, seeing you like this.  I wish and hope that you will wake up one day very soon and will be rid of this condition forever and you will live stronger, happier and with more zest than ever before because of it.
  7. You bring me so much happiness and enjoyment in my life.  I hope I give back as much as I get from you.  I admire you and respect you.  I have grown so much because of you and I will be forever grateful and loyal to you because of that.
  8. Girl – what the hell did you marry him for?
  9. Not sure yet what to think about you but willing to get to know you better and find out.
  10. Sadly, I have come to feel more pity for you, than anger towards you.

 

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