Growing Up Little

A woman exploring the world of BDSM and sharing what she discovers…

My Week Away With My Daddy Dom

I had been a bit nervous before I left.  I was concerned about what this week away with Daniel would mean for our relationship.  It was a step for me, getting close to someone again.  Now that the week has come and gone:  I am very glad we did it.  It was like another layer to our relationship was developed.

During the time we spent together, more aspects of BDSM were explored.  Daniel bought a new cane.  Before him, I had only been spanked by one partner and that was during intercourse (the spanking was an addition, not the main event)!  I enjoy been spanked.  More than I ever thought I would.  The more he does it, the more I want it.  Longer and harder.  He has used:  his bare hands, black leather belt, a wooden hairbrush and now… the cane… the stingest of all.  I would say the cane brings the most pain in its intensity.

Twice during our week away… there were times when the spanking was so intense… I felt my self rise above the pain.  I accepted the pain and didn’t try to fight it.  It was an interesting place to be mentally.

Once during our week away, I was close to crying from being spanked.  I wish he had continued.  I want to be spanked until I cry.  We have talked about it.  I have expressed my desire to come to that point and if and when I do… I don’t want him to stop, as soon as I start crying.  I want him to continue.  It is important to me, that my tears won’t affect his actions.  He says he understands.  That’s something I really love about Daddy… I can tell him something, that to even myself seems strange and he doesn’t bat an eye.  He accepts me for who I am.  I feel like I can tell him anything.  It is the first time in my life, that I have felt this free to open up to someone.  I am who I really am with him.  That is priceless.

From the sounds of this post… all we did during our week away was spanking… SO not true!  More posts about the week to come.

100_0749Living room area of cottage.

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Comfort In Pain

Comfort in Pain

Daddy… I want you to punish me hard, really hard
and then I want you to fuck me better.
Please Daddy?
I want the pain and then
I want the pleasure that you know how to give your little girl so good.
Daddy makes it all better.  Daddy soothes it all away.
And the pain you give me…
makes the pleasure that much more intense, that much better.
I seek comfort in pain.  I find comfort in pain.
You provide that pain for me
and you are my comfort… you are my Daddy.
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Nervous

NERVOUS

I arrived at the cottage this afternoon.  It is great.  Really nice.  Last night, this morning and now – I am feeling a bit panicky.  I’ve been trying to analyze it.  It’s been awhile since I felt like this with him and this time… I don’t think it’s nerves about the BDSM… it’s nerves about the relationship.  This is our first time “going away” together…  (He doesn’t get here till tomorrow morning.)  I think it’s sort of a new stage in our relationship and I’m freaking out a bit.  How the hell did I get here?  I mean… I don’t want to sound ungrateful because he is SO good for me… he really, really is.  BUT…  I am still scared getting this close to someone and I have gotten close to him… really close.  I didn’t think I would allow myself to feel this way again about another man.  I had given up men totally for years and years.  Now there is Daniel.  Daddy.  And… sometimes… I stop and ask myself – what the fuck are you doing?

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Cottage Update…

Cottage Update

Thank you to those that kept their fingers crossed for me when they read Last Minute Scramble.

I am VERY happy to report that we ended up being able to get another cottage to rent, during that same time period and although it is almost three times the cost of the other place… it looks three times better!  It is waterfront, private beach, fire pit in front yard, huge flat screen TV, hardwood, beautiful kitchen, 2nd floor bedroom has a balcony with view of the lake, two person jacuzzi tub… the perks keep going on.  So, sometimes when things go “wrong” – they actually end up going better!

Here are a few pictures of the cottage we are going to next week:

Right on Lake Erie

 

Looking forward to chillin on that couch!

 

Fireplace!

 

Hardwood floors…

I will be sure to remember to post our own candid shots during our cottage stay too!  Look for them in a week or two!

 

 

 

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